Death

So many things have been happening recently that I've wanted to blog about, but I keep putting off spending the time doing it. A friend had a baby and her mother got remarried, I bought a house and my husband and I both had birthdays, two high school Japanese students stayed with us for a weekend, our Korean exchange student is back in the US and living with us again... so many things to write about, and I keep putting them off because I'm busy with other things.

My mom called this evening because my grandpa's wife died today. I've sort of held a grudge against him (for reasons I don't wish to speak of) for most of my life, so even though I live close enough to visit him now, I never do. I never knew his wife well since they got married when I was almost an adult, and so I was never really around when they would visit my family, but I have met her a few times. Since I didn't know her well, her death doesn't affect me that much. However, death always brings on the thought that I will never again have the opportunity to speak with that person, or even see them. Even though I didn't know her well, the lost opportunity leaves a little pang of sorrow and of guilt. This awakens in me a little desire to make an effort to spend some time with my grandpa.

Although I don't believe in an afterlife, I do hope she died peacefully, and I hope she is now at rest.